went to watch WHERE GOT GHOST with dar and gary last week i guess haha. wa tat like super long la. din really hv the time to blog. been real tired after work everyday sia. work like dog like tat haha. the show wasnt really very nice lol. i think the 2nd story best. cause the funniest ba ha. but dar say the story very touching. haha then after that walk her back to her house sia. tat like so far la! think gt 5 stops la haha. get to see her brother for the 1st time. he damn look like his mum la. ha gary say his brother looks more like fren to dar haha.


then recently just went to brother's gf de chalet lol. super long din get to see my kor liao. as usual he treat me super bad. keep on say me la! but he really treat his gf damn well. but his gf was like super young sia. she's only 16 haha. but i must call her da sao liao haha. if i cn find til a bf like my brother jiu hao sia haha. then my big brother was there too. his gf more dao ha. but malaysian ppl. like my mum ha. he's gg to phillipines next month for the casino training for 2-3 months sia. haha if i nw 21 i sure go also sia. i think work casino damn cool leh haha. all the rich ppl some more haha. maybe i work a few months i cn get married liao haha. really think alot sia haha. ok tat like super long la. still gt 3 yrs. nw really gonna headach whether i should take hair stylist or beauty course sia. really cant made a decision!! cause both also attractive course ah haha. sucks! i hate making decision sia. gt work in future jiu cn liao ba haha. and my brother is studying nw haha! finally he's thinking for his future after so long. i wish, my family wil unite again haha....



i felt like i shouldnt left school ha. cause i need to wake up punctually everyday sia! at least school i stil cn late but not for work=( and thanks for the complains that i cant wear shorts to work liao sia! i hate wearing jeans sia. i think i go there work is like gg gym to carry weight liao. the files are super heavy and am having muscle cramp liao! am looking forward to my first pay man hehe.and ytd went look for my mother to have dinner. cause her fren strike 4D and won 20K sia! super lots. i wonder why my mum doesnt strike any big before lol ha. but it doesnt matter, cause i still get to eat hehe. and i saw a little boy. he's super cute la. he's not afraid of stranger hugging him de lol. and he kept drinking my mum's half cup of juice la haha (green apple+orange+carrot) leh. so sour he also cn drink finish sia haha. super cute=) i was told nt to touch his head cause dunno of wat la haha. is it true? next time i also dun allow other ppl touch my baby's head liao haha. i wish i cn faster get married! like always de thinking ha cause am super lazy to work. can my husband just marry me and yang me haha. ok am bullshitting. tml still got to work sia! real shagg. gonna off to bed liao..

looking forward to Friday=)










have been working this few days and the first week really kills me. its was damn tiring cause i hardly wake up so early for work and my everyday routine was only filing. can really doze off when am alone in the room ha. finally its weekend and i doesnt to work liao! then ytd night went to meet Gary for movie at Jurong Point. watched Hang Over. i guess it gonna be the best comedy show i ever watch ba. but the triller isnt really tat funny so starting i din think of watching it till HE say it was nice. so we to watch and of cause it turn out to be a nice show =)

after the show, went all the way from JP to JE.. i dunno how long the walking takes cause we were busy talking but we are sweating like mad. Wanted to find Him cause been 1 week plus i din see him i guess and turns out that its gonna be the last night. again, He's force to come down when he was damn tired after schooling and training. if He had nv know me... He will not be suffering all this nonsense from me. went over to Boon Lay to find Dar to have a talk. maybe should thanks Dar for dragging Him over ba ha. and Gary is flying off to Thailand today!! so its gonna be a small farewell party for him haha.

so the last night end off with the same conclusion. He's just not gonna be mine. i nv knew i gonna love some1 so deeply ba. i just doesnt hv any mood for anything, anyone. if only i know the 3 nights are all i hv for my entire life, i will nv waste any sec but just watching u. if only i know its was first and last time we went to JP tgt, i will not show u atti and walk away. if i know how sad am i to part with u in train, i will chase after u and not watching ur back leaving. if only i know i cn see u longer, i can forsake any job just to be with u for a little longer. if only i knew u earlier....

just dunno wat should i do now to numb all those misses, hurts, feelings. the best solution would be moving on but seems like i doesnt wan to find 1. i guess i will nv love some1 as much as Him. so the least i can do was to stay away from Him, not asking anything about Him, not contacting Him. maybe Gary is right... i should be dead heart by now. love isnt smth nice after all when u cant be with someone u really want.

i just want to be alone....






just change my blogskin days ago. tot this blogskin would best describe how am i feeling... haix.. hving so much trouble this few days, hv been bothering over love again.. tot of gg malaysia for a vacation then can attend my relative wedding too.. too bad a pig is nv early when waking up haha. too shagg and thus din manage to leave auntie! but nvm.. i shall go back when its New Year ha. though the angbao money was super pathetic.. but better than nth ha. i hope i can faster grow older! so i can skip the process of hving BGR and get married ha. like this i wont get hurt or hurt anyone anymore. ha but its only a WISH. i hope i cn lost part of memory too. i wish i cn only rem Dar and some good frens... just frens.. and by the time i wake upo from coma i alr 24 liao. can married liao ha. but only way to lost memory is to get car bang ah. like tat my face so will kanna bang sia. damn dangerous haha. kk am so crap ha! argh!! i hope ppl will be dating me out like mad.. so i no need to stay over and wonder my mind.. even some tiko pek ask me out i also go out sia hahaha. maybe i should look for some night time job too.. just came back from Cisco. went there to roughly understand my job scope.. wa. the files is super lots and hard to find de la. think one day i cn lie in hospital liao cause my back is aching even for the first trail day man! damn shit. but the pay is soso and the ppl there are quite nice. so overall should be nt bad la haha. gonna go prepare soon.. meeting dar after her waxing haha.. she's super cute to call me and laugh and cry over the phone haha. to share the pain-ness with her haha. i glad she meet me...

recently have been listening to Fang Sheng... dunno why, i guess its how he's thinking since the day i started to ruin his life.. guess he really needs to be alone and i really need to stop stalking him ha. i guess am super scary to him ba. he made me remind that i once love a guy with my whole heart.. and that the longest guy i ever had. tat why am super crazy over him ba. even though he doesnt like me. reject me. but he's still a very nice guy. at least he care for u. made sure u will be safe. talk to u again and again without giving u attitude. those small actions of his can show how ti tie he's gonna be... u cn know how sweet he cn be to his gf. how devoted he is to his ex. to his RS. he's like everyone ideal guy.. thus i dun deserve him. wat do i hv to fight with others gals over him ha. or maybe he's just waiting for his mrs right. no idea how to stop my misses for him. how to stop my chong dong of not finding him. how to get him away from my thoughts. should i or should i not give up on this special him. its the 2nd time tat i found some1 i love. but am nt as lucky this time round. he's gt no reason to be with me too.. i wish i cn more understanding and lovable ha. just no mood in stepping into rs.. its like a karma gg round and round. and guess its the best punishment for me for brking others heart when they are nice to me. but guess this blow is enough to cover ever single one i hurt. i nv wanted some1 so badly... how silly it is to think tat there might be hope if i continue to jian chi. but like he said. love can nv be force and like is dff from love. i really need to occupy my mind every min, every sec. imisshim







since it was the last night liao, jiu went to find him lol.. haha kanna think am damn crazy and irritating sia. haha i guess, the most regretful thing he ever done was letting me know where he stay ba haha.. but i just cant control so end up at his house dwnstairs lol haha. am so sick of everything... hearing stuffs over and over again.. i just wanna be alone... just no idea wat can i do. i cant even force myself to hate him nor force him to be with me. first time in life i felt so shagg over RS and doesnt wish to find anyone else. so am leaving... be back soon i guess=) i miss him...

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